So I am worried about tomorrow, well that is if I can see a doctor. I am terrified of doctors and only go when absolutely necessary. I hope all that I find out, if I find out anything it will be good news or news that I can handle. Enough of my doctor story and my fears lol.
I missed church today that was kinda rough, haha I never knew sundays could be so boring, but hey nothing I can do about it.. :p
I must say it was a good day to reflect on some things like my friends and family. I have one amazing friend who has been my friend since I was 11. She is with me through thick and thin, all the boys that have broken our hearts she is that one where you go over and eat ice cream with and cry and fall asleep watching love movies. Today also let me see all the bad in my life, it is a hard thing to take in when you want your whole life to be good and happy. I am trying to be happy again and I realize it will take longer than I want.
Nothing eventful today, which kinda sucks but I do have a date with my boy, which I think is much needed. I hope this no fighting day lasts.. he keeps saying things will change and I really hope one day it will my heart is breaking right under him and he doesn't even see it, or feel the need to fight for me. I love him with all my heart, maybe I fell to fast but maybe it is the right thing and I just don't see it yet, I will not give up I never do.
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