This past Saturday is when me and my ex-fiance planned to get married. Not that I am complaining I am not with him, it was for the best.. but at the same time its almost like seeing your life pass before your eyes and its not in your control. It has been tough but I know I am getting stronger! Maybe one day I will get married but after going through legal courses I have learned that I shouldn't get married, have kids or go into debt (which is kinda hypocritical since I had to get loans to go to school haha).
"Yearn for where you want to go, not for where you have already been: Your future will be better, your days will be brighter, and your nights will be filled with the glorious heavens."
On a couple good notes,
1. Its freaking May which means...... about a month until I am done my freaking course! I will just have to complete a Practicum (which is having me freak out inside, as I do not have one.. and my school doesn't help you look for one! --GAY). I am somewhat disappointed in my GPA as I wanted a 4.0 but only have a sad 3.3 but I have 3 classes to raise it so I better ace the rest of my classes!
2. My sister finished her schooling and is graduating in August (2 days after my b-day.. which is a great month just saying). I am so proud of her! She graduated with honors while having a one year old and having a second baby right near the end of her finishing! She is amazing! I <3 her!! I am excited for her graduation as I should be done all of my schooling and practicum and can goooo!!!
“Sister. She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child.”
3. I am started to feel more confident in Law! I have consumed so much knowledge in a short span of time 14 months to learn what takes lawyers 3 :/ and I work under them! haha. I recently applied for a practicum and i didn't get it because they had a student doing their practicum from Red Deer... but for some odd reason I am not upset about a rejection for the simple fact they actually looked at my cover letter and resume.. which is kinda odd because I have gone through this process in getting jobs (wasn't so excited)
I am trying to keep focused on my future and what could be but sometimes the fear of not doing well hits me right in the chest and knocks me down. I hope one day I will be able to conquer how I think and feel!