My life has been pretty confusing lately, I don't know where to go or where to start. When I get an idea as to what I want to do, it never happens. I guess I have to be super patient which is hard when you aren't and never will be a patient person.
I have been graduated since 08 and have been "finding myself" the only part no one tells you about that is, its not easy. Will I ever be enough for anyone? Will I succeed in life? Will I be able to die happy one day? Are all questions I ask myself. These past couple years have shown me that you can't do it all by yourself you need someone bigger and more powerful which is our heavenly father. My religion has been the only thing that keeps me going. I know that no matter what I do there is always someone there for me, and no matter how many times I screw up if I put my pride aside I can be forgiven. Now enough of me preaching haha.
So after I have had a lot of thought, and breakdowns and breakthroughs I know my next step in life. Which is to upgrade so I will be able to get into NAIT here in Edmonton. I want to study to become an Ultrasound Sonographer. Although this is not my ultimate dream, it is something that interests me and it will help me get to my ultimate goal of being a Marine Biologist.
I hope I will be able to make everyone proud, something I tend to worry about it is pleasing everyone. I know it is not necessary but I think everyone deserves the best and I dont want to slack and hurt someone. I know in time I will figure it all out. PATIENCE.
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